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Photo by Eddie Herena
Photo by Eddie Herena

Some days I can’t stand to look in the mirror
Tryin’ daily to find relief through written scripture
Even though the melanin in my skin tells me I’m built to win
This battle within
And what about where the desires truly lie
Or could the lies ingested on the inside be a personification of self hate injected by the media?That today, yeah today — is a good day
only if it’s brought to you by Coca-Cola
seems to me
everything’s a marketing scheme
maybe even me

I’m just hoping you buy in
into this intelligent introvert
a heaven sent martyr
with the ability to people please
or is that only when the people are pleasing to me

Welcome to my world
where imperfections are systematically picked at for the purpose of identifying the why
why we stop pushin’ for
the why we stop fighting for
the why we on this earth for
to take up space?
I doubt that’s it
Remember Jim Crow and segregation
Remember the back of the bus
Remember civil and human rights

I guess we forgot
or got cool with what we got
or was that a given? A given to pacify the times, not realizing we barely scraped by
As for me
enough is enough!
I refuse to sit down or stay down
I understand that generations follow after me. We got enough robots and workers
So I’m the sacrifice
Cause I want my babies proud of me
So their babies proud of them

But understand this
the armor of the most high upon this son, so through my walk
this life light will be what my children mirror
And in their reflection, the hate I proclaimed earlier will be released

So I guess this is a mirror no one sees
the tormented soul of a man
within a man
breaking foundation for the future man to present himself and you can say he’s been here the
whole time
right here in the heart and mind’s eye
waiting for the other to step aside.
Blessings from the most high.

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Steve Warren is a writer incarcerated in California.